Lost Love and Not A Lasting LOVE

I loved you for the first time
when I never knew what love means to me
I thought, being in love is the most beautiful to happen in life
When everything in the world feel like a blessing
love in life was heart warming
you touched my hand but I felt it in heart



















but I was wrong
I was a fool
who became puppet of yours
you played with my emotions
tears flooded my eyes
more than love in my heart
I was too involved in it to realize
who am I
I lost myself, my love
my perceptions to feel love
my heart is not tender but a stone
who don't want love
I am numb to feel anything
touching my hand has lost its connection to heart
tears hardened into crust, though its itching my eyes
I was happy for a short while
or my dream left it way and became the worst nightmare
My search for myself keep me engage all the time
My pen is sweeping my broken heart
which will heal gradually but with scar
On the way to have loved I lost my own way
or I am rising from the ashes
Yes rising from ashes
no one on earth can make me fall
I am strong enough to deal with my emotions
I don't need support in the form of love
I have no fears to lose anything, I lost it but not again
No hurt, no pain
My heart is meditating to search within
finding connection with god whom I can trust without any fear of losing him.

 

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But I love You

I love you
but don't cryif i hurt you
just smile
no matter if your heart weep
i hate tears
i hate to see you in tears
but even if i utter bitter words
may not think of you
may be my ego is my only love
just listen
don't argue
it may hurt my ego
i don't want suggestions
i know what i am doing
i am doing for the best
don't think
just follow,what i say
your existence makes no difference to me
but don't cry
you know i hate tears
but i love you.

Just A Dummy

I am dummy 
just a dummy


I have no rights
no space
just listening to
what you speak


I smile
with tears in my eyes
you saw my smile
my tears are 
just adding glow to my skin


I am dummy
just a dummy.......just a dummy

tears

tears are my story teller
weaving around my eyes
carry so much pain in it

when rolling down through the cheek
washing away the pain

 no one saw my pain,felt my pain
holding it in my eye for so long

now my tear glands losing its strength
my true friends ,my tears leaving me shattered.