who i am.... who i am not?

when i was crying
i was crying alone
my eyes are burning
my heart is aching
but no one looked into my eyes
no one saw that pain in me

i was falling
fighting
working in humility
to reach a place
to get something
which can make my better

i try to fool myself
or too optimistic to realize
what reality is
my emotions are draining
more than tears
but who cares
no one

it is always me who cares
but i am the one
the fool
who is hurt
and let other hurt me even more

i don't know
what i am doing now
my directions
so i am
no one is their to hold my hand
and who say i am there

my existence does not matter anymore
my presence is not felt anymore
my tears my silent cry
is not heard anymore

who i am
who i am not
does not makes difference
except to me
i am self obsessed
i am trying to figure out things
things which were blurred
are becoming clear

i am what i am
i don't to prove you anymore
i am what i am
i know my stuff
i know my head and heart
though i feel things by heart
head is taking control now

i was fool
but now i am not
you try me
you will get tough me
dare you make me cry
dare you snatch my dreams

you are no where closer to me
i am happy
i don't to hurt my self
i just want to talk about myself

If You Love Me

if you love me
love me the way i am
the real me
and not the way you want me

if you trust me
trust me
i will never wrong you
if you don't trust me
it is up to you

if you respect me
respect me as an individual
not because of my achievements
not because of my failure

if you believe me
i am with you
in good and worst condition

if you love me
don't hurt me
to the extent
that it won'theal
but become an ointment on my wound

i am always there with you
walk with me
and i will walk with you lets walk together

don't analyze me don't criticize me
if you can't appreciate me

Letting Emotions Out

emotions always hurt
proved several times
if I am silent
doesn't mean I am happy
you never looked into my eyes
and never realized
how bad it feel
when you utter bitter words
hurts me
deep inside
make me feel cry
but never let tears to flow weakly
taking support from myself
don't want to lean on any support
after meeting you
never feel like trusting anybody else
hurt is pricking me
tears are sobbing inside my eyes
but it never affected you
how could you be so indifferent
my heart is turning into stone
my emotions are pushing me
to dump my emotions in my blog